My greatest fear...

Taken from this article:
This gender dynamic doesn’t necessarily affect girls with Asperger’s when they are very young; if anything, they often fare better than boys at an early age because they tend to be less disruptive. In 1993, Catherine Lord, a veteran autism researcher, published a study of 21 boys and 21 girls. She found that when the children were between the ages of 3 and 5, parents more frequently described the girls as imitating typical kids and seeking out social contacts. Yet by age 10, none of the girls had reciprocal friendships while some of the boys did. “The girls often have the potential to really develop relationships,’ says Lord, a psychology and psychiatry professor and director of the Autism and Communication Disorders Center at the University of Michigan. “But by middle school, a subset of them is literally dumbstruck by anxiety. They do things like bursting into tears or lashing out in school, which make them very conspicuous. Their behavior really doesn’t jibe with what’s expected of girls. And that makes their lives very hard.”

After Trin's diagnosis last year, we stopped therapy.
I had been searching for a reason for all of the madness and once one was found, we jumped off the roller coaster and started to focus on rebuilding our lives and including AS as one of the bricks. I read up on EVERYTHING I could find and picked a few things to try and just put one foot in front of the other until we were moving along at a reasonable speed.
But I am afraid.
I can see her starting to get upset often about not having friends. She has cried when someone has said something mean to her. School can be a scary place for her when it comes to kids and playing and their attempt at structure and knowing that I cannot make everything right has pushed me back towards therapy. So in the next two weeks, we will start seeing a new therapist, one recommended to us by Any Baby Can.
And I am hoping that with new therapy she will stand a chance at making some friends and fitting in socially because it breaks my heart to see her struggle.